I got in trouble when as a teenager(what a dork I was) I brought the Babylon the great has fallen book, to the Revelation bookstudy. I had crossed referenced all the scriptures and thought I was presenting insightful material. But while I was commenting I was realizing that it was coming across more as contradiction. I was spoken to about the book after the study and told not to use it because it was old light.
That was the beginning of my deeper study however I was able to brush it of as light getting brighter for a long time. Funny thing was noone ever seemed interested in talking about the interesting things I thought I had found. My mom just brushed it off.
6 years later, after the business of being a teenager had gone by, I again started searching to prove what I was reading to be right. I am still here trying to make sense of it all.
It makes no sense.